I'll be inactive for a while because of a lot of reasons like finishing work, studies, and art... Idk, NGL my mental health is not in a good place right now and being here seeing the people I know, people I can't even call my friends anymore it hurts. It hurts every time. Knowing they hate me, and I know I deserve that. I deserve to be their villain now. I deserve to be miserable and to suffer alone because that's all I do...

It hurts that I hurt the one I love, and I hate myself so much. I know I've been paranoid with everyone, and I keep having dreams that aren't nice, and keeping my guilt alive. I hate the fact that I'm still alive... Maybe I can end this...

To everyone, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything and for all my mistakes. I don't need your forgiveness because I don't deserve them, but I'm sorry.

To the people I once called friends I'm very thankful for being a part of everything for 4 years but not everything has a good ending.

And last to her, I'm sorry for the things I've done to you. I'm sorry for being a friend. I'm sorry that I hurt you and for being paranoid about the people you talked to, I'm sorry for having feelings for you, and I'm sorry for everything. I was scared to see you get hurt by everyone again yet I did it all for myself.

I'm sorry that I will not going to be in your journey and I hope you're all in a better place now... without me.

I'm sorry, everyone.